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Friday, August 6, 2010
Trying to Read a Poem
(NB: Most of the links here are ridiculous.)
I’m trying to find a poem by a particular poet. Any poem of his will do, but I can’t remember who it is. Here’s what I know about him:
He’s male. I think he’s British. I think there is an “A” in his name, though maybe not the first letter. I read a poem by him once, it had perhaps three stanzas, and I liked it. Perhaps he is from the late 19th century.
I’m pretty sure he isn’t A.E. Housman, although I often confuse Housman with almost everyone. I thought his “When I was one and twenty” poem was by Hardy. I like that poem in spite of the fact that it makes fun of youthful conviction, which is a mean thing to do. Kids have to make their own mistakes, even in matters of love.
And anyway, how old was Housman when he wrote it? No more than 37, which is when he self-publishing it in his book, A Shropshire Lad.
Self-published! See, the manuscript was rejected several times. This I know from Wikipedia, where I also learned that the book’s success is due in part to musicians who set melody to the words.
But I cannot think of a way to effectively Google, “Who is that poet I’m thinking of,” so instead what I’ll do is wander attentively through the writers who spring to mind, and perhaps by the end of this essay I’ll connect to the one on the tip of my tongue.
Relatedly, and inexplicably, I can never remember the actor who plays in The Prince of Tides. It isn’t that I confuse him with Gary Busey; that’s dumb. And I have a very good knack for remembering the names of celebrities. And I like this guy and admire him as a great actor. But that I always flounder when mentioning him is a true thing.
This is not a problem that I typically have with this poet. It’s only been a couple days that I can’t remember his name. Prior to that, though, I may never have tried.
I can’t remember why I read that poem of his. Perhaps it was for a class, though I doubt it. My poetry education is bad. It is regrettable. In the course of earning my MFA, I purchased fewer than ten books of poems for my classes.
One of the books was an uninspired anthology. Most of the poems were American, light verse. One of the books was about the various forms available, with explication and examples. One was Robert Pinsky’s The Sounds of Poetry. The most ambitious syllabus, for a class I ended up accidentally not registered for, included collections by Anna Swir, Yusef Komunyakaa, Carolyn Forché and a couple others I can’t remember. I have them on my shelf and I’ll read them one of these days.
I’ve read that Plath poem, “Daddy,” like four or five times. “You do not do you do not do” or whatever, but I don’t really like it. I only say this to show how bad my poetry education is: we never once read Plath in school, anywhere.
For me, working diligently consists of sliding a mouse around on a small pad. Efficiency means you barely move your hands as you type. I have grown distracted, so I Googled “poetics.” Aristotle is not who I am trying to remember, but it is fun to let the Internet think for you. I do it all the time.
I tried to read “Daddy” again. Couldn’t. Where will I stop next on this adventure? Might as well look in on Hardy, as I confused him with whom I confuse who it is I’m trying to think.
“The Darkling Thrush” includes the line “In blast-beruffled plume,” which wholly justifies my day. But the poem doesn’t smack of this day, August 6, 2010. It’s hot outside, and sunny.
Maybe the guy I’m trying to remember is very Catholic. I’m tempted, as I heap word upon word, to scour the contents table of some Norton Anthology, but it is too soon, too soon.
Yesterday I copied into a notebook that hammock poem by James Wright. The one where he describes his surroundings with lines like, “The droppings of last year’s horses/Blaze up into golden stones” and concludes, “I have wasted my life.” It is extraordinary. Perhaps now I will try to find out what Harold Bloom thinks about that trope.
Nothing, apparently. At least, not from my cursory research. However, in Genius: A Mosaic of One Hundred Exemplary Creative Minds (sheesh), Bloom does reference Wright’s statement that Fernando Pessoa is “the true heir of ‘our father Walt Whitman’,” though it isn’t clear from Google Books if Bloom is referencing Wright’s statement in terms of Whitman or Pessoa.
And at any rate, who is William Duffy—aside from the guy who owned the farm that brought James Wright to such crisis? I know his name. It’s right there in the title of the poem, which, okay, is “Lying in a Hammock at William Duffy’s Farm in Pine Island, MN.”
It’s cool when poetry things happen in the American Midwest, as opposed to New England. But probably, after New England, then San Francisco, the middle states are the US’s most poetry-concerned.
William Duffy, it turns out, was a pretty awesome dude that got chastised for mentioning prostitution to his middle school students, and ran a poetry magazine with Robert Bly called The Fifties. He wrote rejection letters that would make Lee Klein, the Eyeshot editor proud, saying things like, “Your poems remind me of false teeth.” I got this from a website with the URL, RobertBly.com, and if you care about poetry or friendship, you’ll look it up right away.
In the Sewanee Review, James Wright’s first book was compared to Keats, and Wright decided then to quit writing poetry. He didn’t though.
Which reminds me of that chestnut from Rilke about a poet being a person who must write. I’ve always hated that. Flannery O’Connor said a writer is a person who can write, and that makes more sense to me.
I am no closer to remembering the name of the poet whom I want to read now. This net is too wide, perhaps, so I’m resigned to using “British poet” as my search term. He is not there. He is not Blake or Byron, Coleridge, Keats, Shelley, Wordsworth. He is not Rosetti, though I ought to read her. Why not? Her name is Christina Georgina Rosetti, she must be good.
I’m back. I read her. I like her. I like how those people back then used to make points. I mean, arguments. There are four stanzas in “I watched a rosebud.” In the first, the speaker watches a rosebud bloom. In the second she watches a bird’s nest with anticipation, but the birds orphan the eggs and they don’t hatch. In the third, the conned speaker breaks the branch and nest from the tree, but in the fourth stanza she feels bad and reflects “what if God,/Who waited for thy fruits in vain,/Should also take the rod?”
Rosetti factors in Nicholson Baker’s fantastic novel, The Anthologist, but my elusive poet doesn’t come up once. That is odd, because Paul Chowder, the protagonist, prizes rhyme most highly, and this poet has complicated rhymes all over. Slant rhyme and end rhyme and all that.
My friend Joe just emailed me a new version of the song, “I Dreamed I Saw St. Augustine,” this one by The Dirty Projectors. I emailed him back about what I was doing, and that I was getting frustrated. I’ve been Googling all willy-nilly for a while but without result—except to learn that Bruce Springsteen may be the greatest Catholic poet.
Joe named my poet in two guesses, though.
At first he said Browning. I’ve not read Browning, at least not that I can recall. Or, in fact, I recall reading Browning as an undergraduate student, but it would be impossible for me to name one of his or her poems.
How exciting, though, finally, to have the mystery solved, and to be rewarded that all my clues were accurate. And how great to have a friend to help in the chase. That, I think, is the best part. Poetry ought to happen with friends.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Saturday book giveaway
Dammit I have two copies of Kevin Sampsell's amazing memoir, A Common Pornography.
First commenter can have my extra.
Can't have won anything in the last few weeks. Can't have already been planning to buy it. Can't already have it. If you think you qualify, leave a comment and then email your address to me (adam, publishinggenius, TLD [top level domain (eg .com, .info [NOT .tm (Turkmenistan) or .me (Montenegro) -- these are ccTLDs (ie. Country Code Top Level Domain])]).
Mailing the rest of Mike Young's first book to people who ordered the early edition. Going to close the orders for the early edition after tomorrow, so if you want a copy sooner than later, get up on that. It is a really good book, no doubt. No doubt.
I'm rocking the Saturday morning nude. I love routine.
Lately I've been thinking a lot of No.
Today I Wikipedia'd about Requiems. How could I have not noticed that there is no Dies Irae in the Faure? The Brahms is in town tonight and I don't know it, didn't know there was one, will maybe go. But -- German?
(It's actually very nice.)
Read the one with the dragon tattoo. Tore through that, sated my desire for the status quo.
Bunch of loud addicts out there.
First commenter can have my extra.
Can't have won anything in the last few weeks. Can't have already been planning to buy it. Can't already have it. If you think you qualify, leave a comment and then email your address to me (adam, publishinggenius, TLD [top level domain (eg .com, .info [NOT .tm (Turkmenistan) or .me (Montenegro) -- these are ccTLDs (ie. Country Code Top Level Domain])]).
Mailing the rest of Mike Young's first book to people who ordered the early edition. Going to close the orders for the early edition after tomorrow, so if you want a copy sooner than later, get up on that. It is a really good book, no doubt. No doubt.
I'm rocking the Saturday morning nude. I love routine.
Lately I've been thinking a lot of No.
Today I Wikipedia'd about Requiems. How could I have not noticed that there is no Dies Irae in the Faure? The Brahms is in town tonight and I don't know it, didn't know there was one, will maybe go. But -- German?
(It's actually very nice.)
Read the one with the dragon tattoo. Tore through that, sated my desire for the status quo.
Bunch of loud addicts out there.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Yick Junk Moondick
I've been scuba diving in the ocean of busy so I can't even make a stupid blog post. Love making blog posts, too, especially smart ones. Well, settle for a stupid one.
I have some great interviews that I can't wait to put up at htmlgiant -- important stuff I think. Stuff about bookstores.
Putting out three books (Barber reissue, Byrne, Devine) at once was a crazy idea. I love it so much but I'm feeling it in my body. Or maybe that's the ski trip. Life, hard -- headached -- is whoa gimme.
"Work" work has swung up. I can't get one thing done before 4 more things come in. Feel nervous. People are saying my name into the phone. "Adam takes care of that," "Adam is already working on that," "That's overdue? Oh, that was ARob."
Also my own book.
Also my own book, which is HOME FROM THE PRINTER ON THURSDAY. I'm not excited, I'M EXCITED. People, people: you should have it next week.
I feel kind of nervous about that.
Also, dig my my MFA thesis project, which isn't just a manuscript (called SAY POEM), but it also has to be made into a self-published book. If it comes out nice, I will sell it/give it away to people. I am not sure how I feel about self-publishing. Even though I think I might be able to do a better job with my own book than some other presses might do (because, like, I would have Justin design it and Michael provide legal advice and Marion help with promotion and Josh with proofreading and maybe I could get Shane to write it even), it still doesn't jive for me. I am fine when other people do it though. So what's with that?
Anyway, that is five books that I'm working full bore on right now. I do it for status, so, overnight, I can become the most famous poet ever.
I have some great interviews that I can't wait to put up at htmlgiant -- important stuff I think. Stuff about bookstores.
Putting out three books (Barber reissue, Byrne, Devine) at once was a crazy idea. I love it so much but I'm feeling it in my body. Or maybe that's the ski trip. Life, hard -- headached -- is whoa gimme.
"Work" work has swung up. I can't get one thing done before 4 more things come in. Feel nervous. People are saying my name into the phone. "Adam takes care of that," "Adam is already working on that," "That's overdue? Oh, that was ARob."
Also my own book.
Also my own book, which is HOME FROM THE PRINTER ON THURSDAY. I'm not excited, I'M EXCITED. People, people: you should have it next week.
I feel kind of nervous about that.
Also, dig my my MFA thesis project, which isn't just a manuscript (called SAY POEM), but it also has to be made into a self-published book. If it comes out nice, I will sell it/give it away to people. I am not sure how I feel about self-publishing. Even though I think I might be able to do a better job with my own book than some other presses might do (because, like, I would have Justin design it and Michael provide legal advice and Marion help with promotion and Josh with proofreading and maybe I could get Shane to write it even), it still doesn't jive for me. I am fine when other people do it though. So what's with that?
Anyway, that is five books that I'm working full bore on right now. I do it for status, so, overnight, I can become the most famous poet ever.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Catching Up On Some Blogging
I bin on the wick biz tip and all adig in't.
But, happy as I am, at the same time I feel like I have neglected some really important things, like setting up a reading tour in March. Like setting up a screening of 60 Writers/60 Places at AWP. Like sending doing the blog.
One thing I would have written about is the awesome Literary Death Match that Opium brought to Baltimore. Todd Zuniga is a really good hoster. He's formal in his tailor-made suit, but casual in his demeanor such that the audience gets laid back. So it was fun, and it was the right amount of impromptu in the impromptu snow.
Mike Young came to it. He read at it. Was it the best poetry reading I've ever seen done? I've seen a lot of them. I think it was the best. It passes my populist test, meaning I think even my ma woulda liked it. She wouldn'a know what was all up in it, but Mike was convincing as heckle.
Jen Michalski did a read before him. Hers was, as Anthony Burgess would write, "horror show," which is to say, great, evocative. It was about Heidegger's notion of what is a thing as he writes in his essay "The Thing" which can be found in the book POETRY, LANGUAGE, THOUGHT. He says, "A thing is a thing insofar as it things." Jen's piece was happy about how things get smaller and you put them places, like in a room.
Mike's piece cannot be capitulated so neatly. It was about love, though, and from the air pulled love sentiments that made love actually.
And if you want to know the whole truth in part, the impromptu part that I liked best was that one of the judges's moms got snowed in so the babies had to be sat motherwise, meaning that Carolyn Zaikowski, who came with Mike Young to the show, got to be the judge in the first part of the match. She wrote these poems on the spot that were really funny. Her name again, Baltimore, is Carolyn Zaikowski. She is okay. She goes to Naropa. Apparently she writes non-narrative novels. I'm not wicked sure that is accurate, but I'm sure her name is Carolyn Zaikowski and she is the drummer in my band, The Random Incident. She also plays keys in her own outfit, called Carolyn Conspiracy. She lives in Massachussetts or whatever it's spelled.
There's more to it than that, though. She and Mike kept asking if I was talking about "the Ipad, the new tablet computer from Apple." She and Mike kept singing about how everyone was going to die from STDs, so we should all make love. We hung up poems in the Hampden neighborhood of Baltimore. We did a professional photoshoot at the Safeway. At the vegan expo, we ate the food.
People are like, make every word count. I'm more like, make none of the words count.
I could hyperlink junk, and maybe I will, but maybe if you're interested you can just Google whatever.
***
FLASH: Submissions for books will open again soon.
FLASH: I'm going to migrate platforms to a submissions manager called submishmash. They seem like good people, dig?
FLASH: I gotta go to the doctor!
FLASH: I'm starting a cooking show and I'm either going to call it "Culinary Genius" or "Cooking with ARob." Cast your vote below. It's going to be on the Internet. The first episode will feature Kevin Sampsell. The second episode will feature Heather Christle.
FLASH: More announcements to come, but I gotta go to the doctor!
But, happy as I am, at the same time I feel like I have neglected some really important things, like setting up a reading tour in March. Like setting up a screening of 60 Writers/60 Places at AWP. Like sending doing the blog.
One thing I would have written about is the awesome Literary Death Match that Opium brought to Baltimore. Todd Zuniga is a really good hoster. He's formal in his tailor-made suit, but casual in his demeanor such that the audience gets laid back. So it was fun, and it was the right amount of impromptu in the impromptu snow.
Mike Young came to it. He read at it. Was it the best poetry reading I've ever seen done? I've seen a lot of them. I think it was the best. It passes my populist test, meaning I think even my ma woulda liked it. She wouldn'a know what was all up in it, but Mike was convincing as heckle.
Jen Michalski did a read before him. Hers was, as Anthony Burgess would write, "horror show," which is to say, great, evocative. It was about Heidegger's notion of what is a thing as he writes in his essay "The Thing" which can be found in the book POETRY, LANGUAGE, THOUGHT. He says, "A thing is a thing insofar as it things." Jen's piece was happy about how things get smaller and you put them places, like in a room.
Mike's piece cannot be capitulated so neatly. It was about love, though, and from the air pulled love sentiments that made love actually.
And if you want to know the whole truth in part, the impromptu part that I liked best was that one of the judges's moms got snowed in so the babies had to be sat motherwise, meaning that Carolyn Zaikowski, who came with Mike Young to the show, got to be the judge in the first part of the match. She wrote these poems on the spot that were really funny. Her name again, Baltimore, is Carolyn Zaikowski. She is okay. She goes to Naropa. Apparently she writes non-narrative novels. I'm not wicked sure that is accurate, but I'm sure her name is Carolyn Zaikowski and she is the drummer in my band, The Random Incident. She also plays keys in her own outfit, called Carolyn Conspiracy. She lives in Massachussetts or whatever it's spelled.
There's more to it than that, though. She and Mike kept asking if I was talking about "the Ipad, the new tablet computer from Apple." She and Mike kept singing about how everyone was going to die from STDs, so we should all make love. We hung up poems in the Hampden neighborhood of Baltimore. We did a professional photoshoot at the Safeway. At the vegan expo, we ate the food.
People are like, make every word count. I'm more like, make none of the words count.
I could hyperlink junk, and maybe I will, but maybe if you're interested you can just Google whatever.
***
FLASH: Submissions for books will open again soon.
FLASH: I'm going to migrate platforms to a submissions manager called submishmash. They seem like good people, dig?
FLASH: I gotta go to the doctor!
FLASH: I'm starting a cooking show and I'm either going to call it "Culinary Genius" or "Cooking with ARob." Cast your vote below. It's going to be on the Internet. The first episode will feature Kevin Sampsell. The second episode will feature Heather Christle.
FLASH: More announcements to come, but I gotta go to the doctor!
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Oh Yes! Oh oh oh yes yes yes! Best news ever!
Last summer (2008) I was forwarding my gmail account to Outlook. This was for, like, 2 months, but thanks to the Buffalo Poetics list it left me with thousands of unread emails in my gmail. So for the last year I've been whittling the amount of unread email down, from about 6,000. First I searched for "Buffalo" and marked all of those as read, but that still left over 2000. Occasionally I would search other terms and mark the items read.
It just occurred to me to search my account for "a" and mark all read. Boom, that got me from 1541 to 271. Then I searched for " " and got it down to 0.
I haven't seen an empty inbox in so long it actually makes me feel lonely. Just kidding. I am filled with possibility. 2009 is going to be a great year. I mean 2010.
It just occurred to me to search my account for "a" and mark all read. Boom, that got me from 1541 to 271. Then I searched for " " and got it down to 0.
I haven't seen an empty inbox in so long it actually makes me feel lonely. Just kidding. I am filled with possibility. 2009 is going to be a great year. I mean 2010.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
I'm Not Thinking About This Anymore: 2009 Stuff
For a while I thought things were getting out of hand with all the best of lists, but then I realized I have an hour left to work and absolutely no interest in working, so here goes:
Top things I thought about:
1. Sadness/regret/guilt/love/when will it be next year
2. People I love
3. Why do people read what they read and how can I get them to give me money
Top things I talked about:
1. What is Publishing Genius doing
2. See #1
Top things I read from 2009:
1. Scorch Atlas by Blake Butler -- still on page 1 but I'm getting through it
2. Alaska by James Michener -- there are 30 pages in this book that stole Dostoevsky's lunch
3. With Deer by Aase Berg -- What? Poetry doesn't have to be funny to be good?
4. A Jello Horse by Matthew Simmons -- made me cry the first time I read it
5. Easter Rabbit by Joseph Young -- made me realize more about writing than anything else I read
6. The Collectors by Matt Bell -- I love the way it's structured
7. SFAA by Tao Lin -- he's just good
8. How Some People Like Their Eggs by Sean Lovelace -- how to make a sentence noticeable and also fun like a drawer of jelly
9. The Complete Collection of People, Places and Things by John Dermot Woods -- most underrated indie book of the year, needs to be read from the rooftops
10. Big World by Mary Miller -- careful writing, big thoughts in small scale
11. AM/PM by Amelia Gray -- different big thoughts in smaller scale
12. Pee on Water (the manuscript) by Rachel B Glaser -- a book that makes me want to talk about literature
13. DRUNK SONNETS by Daniel Bailey -- behind the case-insensitivity there is real sensitivity
14. The Difficult Farm by Heather Christle -- making the best of a random universe
15. Zizek and Theology by Adam Kotsko -- understanding Zizek through a discipline that is not his own gives an interesting, conversational perspective
16. Inside Madeleine (the manuscript) by Paula Bomer -- unbelievably throat swelling and unbelievable caring, still trying to decide if I can publish this
17. One of These Things Is Not Like the Other by Stephanie Johnson -- delicate relationship stories told in a way that made me care
18. Everything Was Fine Until Whatever by Chelsea Martin -- clever and savvy with an emotional core
19. Crossing to Safety by Wallace Stegner -- the young part is inspiring, the old part is like Michael Kimball's book, How Much of Us There Was
20. Prose Poems a Novel by Jamie Iredell -- excellent writing makes it seem kind of arty and kind of meatheady (or something) at the same time
21. Ever by Blake Butler -- read it twice, still on page 1
22. MLKNG SCKLS by Justin Sirois -- I like the short ones the best, such a great idea, kind of sad that he doesn't like poetry anymore
23. A Cake Appeared by Shane Jones (the manuscript) -- poetry is colorful, accessible and fun like watching a good show on TV, wish I was publishing this
24. The Best of (What's Left of) Heaven (the manuscript) by Mairead Byrne -- out soon from PG, this collection of poetry is as profound in its emotionality as it is in its humor
25. I Am in the Air Right Now by Kathryn Regina -- with the trailer, maybe the most sublime one-two punch in poetry of 2009
Top fun I had:
1. January 1 breakfast with Stephanie Barber and Seth Goodman
2. Friends Thanksgiving in Madison, WI after almost everyone left
3. Quiet lunch/dinner with Shane Jones at AWP
4. Several rowdy occasions with Blake Butler
5. Charlottesville pool party on Sweatpants tour
6. Talking with Joe Young and the Worm, a retired priest, at a coffeeshop in Detroit
7. Pretty much every time Justin Sirois gets out of a car going to a bar he says something funny.
8. Watching Josh Maday and Matt Bell be bouncers at the Genius Party
9. Hearing Sesallee Hensley tell me I did a lovely job on the cover of Light Boxes, then finding out who she is
10. Selling 60 copies of Light Boxes in one day through SPD
Top art things:
1. Stephanie Barber's Lawn Poem
2. Stephanie Barber's "In The Jungle"
3. Animal Charm at Transmodern Festival
4. Stephanie Barber's house
5. Shauna Molton at Transmodern Festival
6. Kate Porter on cello and ? on violin at Cyclops books
7. Jonathan Burks's rawkin', rollin' CD, Brown Paper Bag
8. Josh Loomis's rock 'n roll CDs
9. Amelia Gray doing that "I'm walking down a staircase" gag behind an Ellsworth Kelly sculpture at the BMA
10. All of Ric Royer's performances
Top people who impressed me a lot:
1. John Dermot Woods -- met him in Baltimore and feel like we clicked
2. John Madera -- how much can one person do?
3. J. A. Tyler -- biggest believer
4. Jamie Gaughran-Perez -- stalwart like a bass player is meant to be
5. Justin Sirois -- I mean, did you read this City Paper article? Also, he is someone who appreciates inappropriate conversation.
6. Peter Cole -- he's really funny and packs a wallop
7. Michael Kimball -- knows a lot about contracts and I don't think I beat him in one bet, though I might have eked out a pool win
8. Carl Annumaro -- Greying Ghost books are still the most beautiful functional chapbooks in the world
9. David NeSmith -- if drumsticks were volatile substances we'd all be dead
10. Kevin Sampsell -- best book buyer
Top things I thought about:
1. Sadness/regret/guilt/love/when will it be next year
2. People I love
3. Why do people read what they read and how can I get them to give me money
Top things I talked about:
1. What is Publishing Genius doing
2. See #1
Top things I read from 2009:
1. Scorch Atlas by Blake Butler -- still on page 1 but I'm getting through it
2. Alaska by James Michener -- there are 30 pages in this book that stole Dostoevsky's lunch
3. With Deer by Aase Berg -- What? Poetry doesn't have to be funny to be good?
4. A Jello Horse by Matthew Simmons -- made me cry the first time I read it
5. Easter Rabbit by Joseph Young -- made me realize more about writing than anything else I read
6. The Collectors by Matt Bell -- I love the way it's structured
7. SFAA by Tao Lin -- he's just good
8. How Some People Like Their Eggs by Sean Lovelace -- how to make a sentence noticeable and also fun like a drawer of jelly
9. The Complete Collection of People, Places and Things by John Dermot Woods -- most underrated indie book of the year, needs to be read from the rooftops
10. Big World by Mary Miller -- careful writing, big thoughts in small scale
11. AM/PM by Amelia Gray -- different big thoughts in smaller scale
12. Pee on Water (the manuscript) by Rachel B Glaser -- a book that makes me want to talk about literature
13. DRUNK SONNETS by Daniel Bailey -- behind the case-insensitivity there is real sensitivity
14. The Difficult Farm by Heather Christle -- making the best of a random universe
15. Zizek and Theology by Adam Kotsko -- understanding Zizek through a discipline that is not his own gives an interesting, conversational perspective
16. Inside Madeleine (the manuscript) by Paula Bomer -- unbelievably throat swelling and unbelievable caring, still trying to decide if I can publish this
17. One of These Things Is Not Like the Other by Stephanie Johnson -- delicate relationship stories told in a way that made me care
18. Everything Was Fine Until Whatever by Chelsea Martin -- clever and savvy with an emotional core
19. Crossing to Safety by Wallace Stegner -- the young part is inspiring, the old part is like Michael Kimball's book, How Much of Us There Was
20. Prose Poems a Novel by Jamie Iredell -- excellent writing makes it seem kind of arty and kind of meatheady (or something) at the same time
21. Ever by Blake Butler -- read it twice, still on page 1
22. MLKNG SCKLS by Justin Sirois -- I like the short ones the best, such a great idea, kind of sad that he doesn't like poetry anymore
23. A Cake Appeared by Shane Jones (the manuscript) -- poetry is colorful, accessible and fun like watching a good show on TV, wish I was publishing this
24. The Best of (What's Left of) Heaven (the manuscript) by Mairead Byrne -- out soon from PG, this collection of poetry is as profound in its emotionality as it is in its humor
25. I Am in the Air Right Now by Kathryn Regina -- with the trailer, maybe the most sublime one-two punch in poetry of 2009
Top fun I had:
1. January 1 breakfast with Stephanie Barber and Seth Goodman
2. Friends Thanksgiving in Madison, WI after almost everyone left
3. Quiet lunch/dinner with Shane Jones at AWP
4. Several rowdy occasions with Blake Butler
5. Charlottesville pool party on Sweatpants tour
6. Talking with Joe Young and the Worm, a retired priest, at a coffeeshop in Detroit
7. Pretty much every time Justin Sirois gets out of a car going to a bar he says something funny.
8. Watching Josh Maday and Matt Bell be bouncers at the Genius Party
9. Hearing Sesallee Hensley tell me I did a lovely job on the cover of Light Boxes, then finding out who she is
10. Selling 60 copies of Light Boxes in one day through SPD
Top art things:
1. Stephanie Barber's Lawn Poem
2. Stephanie Barber's "In The Jungle"
3. Animal Charm at Transmodern Festival
4. Stephanie Barber's house
5. Shauna Molton at Transmodern Festival
6. Kate Porter on cello and ? on violin at Cyclops books
7. Jonathan Burks's rawkin', rollin' CD, Brown Paper Bag
8. Josh Loomis's rock 'n roll CDs
9. Amelia Gray doing that "I'm walking down a staircase" gag behind an Ellsworth Kelly sculpture at the BMA
10. All of Ric Royer's performances
Top people who impressed me a lot:
1. John Dermot Woods -- met him in Baltimore and feel like we clicked
2. John Madera -- how much can one person do?
3. J. A. Tyler -- biggest believer
4. Jamie Gaughran-Perez -- stalwart like a bass player is meant to be
5. Justin Sirois -- I mean, did you read this City Paper article? Also, he is someone who appreciates inappropriate conversation.
6. Peter Cole -- he's really funny and packs a wallop
7. Michael Kimball -- knows a lot about contracts and I don't think I beat him in one bet, though I might have eked out a pool win
8. Carl Annumaro -- Greying Ghost books are still the most beautiful functional chapbooks in the world
9. David NeSmith -- if drumsticks were volatile substances we'd all be dead
10. Kevin Sampsell -- best book buyer
Friday, November 6, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
Interview at Outsider Writers
Patrick King and I got into it at Outsider Writers in an interview called "The Unreadable Writer." One thing I said is:
Thanks a lot, Patrick, for giving me the attention! Pat is the sheriff at OW as well as one of the hosts at one of Baltimore's best new reading series -- Last Sunday, Last Rites.
I definitely see the “something more” that you’re referring to, or I catch glimpses of it, and I think that is the objective correlative for my work, as well as the starting point and constant motivation. And for me, reality is trustworthy because it’s predictable. You always know reality is going to blow it, is going to be painful. But what I distrust is the notion that our perception of reality is all that is the case. As an artist, that’s kind of a deal stopper for me. As a member of society, however, I can recognize and accept the value in going forward from this “reality is all we have to work with” presupposition — and it is in the tension between these two thoughts that I hang my poetry.
Thanks a lot, Patrick, for giving me the attention! Pat is the sheriff at OW as well as one of the hosts at one of Baltimore's best new reading series -- Last Sunday, Last Rites.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
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Still having computer problems, I'm thinking about switching full time to my Mac. I tried to download Scribus, the open source page design software, but couldn't find the .dmg and gave up. Can someone share a link to that?
Class starts tomorrow. I am taking a class called "Advanced Creative Writing." . . .
. . .
. . .
I'm pretty sure I'm going to be working on a story told all in screen shots. Like, what stories can you glean from my current desktop view? (Hint: there are a lot.)

If anyone steals my idea I'll be pert peeved.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Microfiction
Over at HTML Giant, Sam Pink is thinking about what flash fiction means compared to a short story. I have a lot of difficulty with flash. Last week I went back and forth with Sasha Fletcher about the value of the genre. I understand it that for him, it's a matter of accumulation -- his stories work in aggregate and the real payoff is when several pieces add up to something bigger than the sum of the parts. For me, when I write flash, I try to nail every single word. Every word should be the totality of the story (I'm applying some Emersonian "height of thought" here). About every word I ask, "Is this the most interesting word choice?" I ask myself if each element of the story is as interesting as it should be, and if the story itself is worth telling.
(UPDATE: That's not to say that Sasha doesn't care about the language in his things. I imagine he feels the same way as I do in that regard. And also, he just told me that during our conversation he was talking about PROSE POETRY. The fact that we were able to carry on a conversation about two different things without knowing it, I think, is indicative of all the problems in these little genres.)
To Pequin last year I submitted a 447-word piece about a guy who meets a girl at an art show. Every element was painstakingly considered, to the extent of my ability. Yet, with an extremely generous letter, Steven rejected the piece, saying among other things, that "Right now I'm after some kind of really tight mindblowing hard-worked text, probably with strong plot and other narrative elements, or something with just genius language." I thought my piece was exactly that, so it was a little painful to read a contrary perspective from an editor I admire.
The thing is, though, that the kind of precision I nailed in the story (IMHO), doesn't always come across in a submission of only one piece. From reading a lot of flash fiction that people submit for Everyday Genius, I know that I don't always catch the intricacies of the work that, I assume, are so familiar to the author. Exquisite prose is a requirement, probably the most important element of a very short story, but alone it does little to garner attention, let alone publication. There's no point in saying well a thing that's boring.
Aside from Amelia Gray's ability to craft great sentences and engaging situations, I think the thing that keeps me coming back to AM/PM is the way she reuses characters from piece to piece. This technique creates a much larger effect; the book is practically a Russian novel with the interweaving lives of suburban emotional tribulation. Individually, the stories in the book are enough to show that Amelia is a capable writer and that she's probably a funny person, but without the full context, I'm not sure I would love any single piece the way I love the book as a whole.
Joseph Young's collection, Easter Rabbit, which Publishing Genius will release in December, works in a completely different way than Amelia's. Joe writes much less into his stories than Amelia does, or pretty much any other author I can think of. I think what happens with these gaping holes is that diligent readers can, if they want, uncover their own intertextuality. If I wanted to apply the same eye to his stories as I used in reading AM/PM, I might conjecture that the "he" in the story about the keys is the same guy with the foot pain. Ultimately, though, my reading of Joe's "microfictions" (as he terms them) is that so little is given, and given so beautifully, that filling in the gaps is not the point. No amount of mesh will hold the caulk and anyway, each story is complete. Reading Easter Rabbit, I have learned not to look for gaps, not to follow story like a sleuth for meaning or literary gadgetry. This is post-structuralism 101. The really cool thing, I learned, is to not not look for, but more simply to not find, value.
Joe has insisted to me that the value of microfiction isn't in mood, which I identify strongly in his work. He also told me that whatever he does, he doesn't know why he does it. I'll leave it for the comment box for Joe to refute this, but I'm pretty sure his writing about the genre (including at Frigg, in this hilarious debate with Randall Brown) hasn't done much to identify what the value is. Microfiction will "carve out whole worlds in a space small enough to fit the eye," he says in that debate, and it "is an experience of time closest to zero," but for a genre so popular in literary circles, and so complicated to define, what is that saying about the worth of a story like this, called "Sine":
I used to care about Zen Buddhism but then I got, like, a job. The fact that I don't care about Koans anymore but that I like Easter Rabbit tells me that there is something more than nothing happening in good microfiction, and it is this: beauty.
(UPDATE: That's not to say that Sasha doesn't care about the language in his things. I imagine he feels the same way as I do in that regard. And also, he just told me that during our conversation he was talking about PROSE POETRY. The fact that we were able to carry on a conversation about two different things without knowing it, I think, is indicative of all the problems in these little genres.)
To Pequin last year I submitted a 447-word piece about a guy who meets a girl at an art show. Every element was painstakingly considered, to the extent of my ability. Yet, with an extremely generous letter, Steven rejected the piece, saying among other things, that "Right now I'm after some kind of really tight mindblowing hard-worked text, probably with strong plot and other narrative elements, or something with just genius language." I thought my piece was exactly that, so it was a little painful to read a contrary perspective from an editor I admire.
The thing is, though, that the kind of precision I nailed in the story (IMHO), doesn't always come across in a submission of only one piece. From reading a lot of flash fiction that people submit for Everyday Genius, I know that I don't always catch the intricacies of the work that, I assume, are so familiar to the author. Exquisite prose is a requirement, probably the most important element of a very short story, but alone it does little to garner attention, let alone publication. There's no point in saying well a thing that's boring.
Aside from Amelia Gray's ability to craft great sentences and engaging situations, I think the thing that keeps me coming back to AM/PM is the way she reuses characters from piece to piece. This technique creates a much larger effect; the book is practically a Russian novel with the interweaving lives of suburban emotional tribulation. Individually, the stories in the book are enough to show that Amelia is a capable writer and that she's probably a funny person, but without the full context, I'm not sure I would love any single piece the way I love the book as a whole.
Joseph Young's collection, Easter Rabbit, which Publishing Genius will release in December, works in a completely different way than Amelia's. Joe writes much less into his stories than Amelia does, or pretty much any other author I can think of. I think what happens with these gaping holes is that diligent readers can, if they want, uncover their own intertextuality. If I wanted to apply the same eye to his stories as I used in reading AM/PM, I might conjecture that the "he" in the story about the keys is the same guy with the foot pain. Ultimately, though, my reading of Joe's "microfictions" (as he terms them) is that so little is given, and given so beautifully, that filling in the gaps is not the point. No amount of mesh will hold the caulk and anyway, each story is complete. Reading Easter Rabbit, I have learned not to look for gaps, not to follow story like a sleuth for meaning or literary gadgetry. This is post-structuralism 101. The really cool thing, I learned, is to not not look for, but more simply to not find, value.
Joe has insisted to me that the value of microfiction isn't in mood, which I identify strongly in his work. He also told me that whatever he does, he doesn't know why he does it. I'll leave it for the comment box for Joe to refute this, but I'm pretty sure his writing about the genre (including at Frigg, in this hilarious debate with Randall Brown) hasn't done much to identify what the value is. Microfiction will "carve out whole worlds in a space small enough to fit the eye," he says in that debate, and it "is an experience of time closest to zero," but for a genre so popular in literary circles, and so complicated to define, what is that saying about the worth of a story like this, called "Sine":
A white line, across the cement, under the park, through the door, faint and hardly there, to its red center.It's worthless! That story and $2.50 will get you a cuppa joe. But -- why care so much about "value?" At what point in the history of art criticism did we start to rely on value when something resists understanding? Oh Aristotle, what are the possible responses to "Sine"? I ask because it seems to me that the possible responses, like all of the possible readings, are the best ones, equally. They are all the best -- as if that matters.
I used to care about Zen Buddhism but then I got, like, a job. The fact that I don't care about Koans anymore but that I like Easter Rabbit tells me that there is something more than nothing happening in good microfiction, and it is this: beauty.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
I ho I'm still alive yeah yeah I ho I'm still alive I'm still alive
What's the title of this post quoting?
Speaking of asking questions to an indeterminate Internet readership, the contest to win a copy of MLKNG SCKLS by writing an acrostic was won by a hot guy named Frank Sung. Justin wrote about it. The contest was hosted by Brian Allen Carr. I don't know what he looks like but I think he's awesome. He wrote about it too.
I've been away for so long that I don't think I'll be able to devote the proper amount of attention to the items Matt Bell has been sharing in my Google Reader. Crap, I feel like I'm missing a lot.
But I watched Blake Butler eat his book Scorch Atlas, which is amazing. The book I mean. Not sure how I feel about him eating it. It's obviously a publicity stunt, and that pisses me off.
I read about Sean Lovelace going to Hot Springs, Arkansas though and want to go there. I also want to write things such as "I calmed down like a TV show" like he does. In fact, I don't want to write at all unless I write things like that.
Back in May I walked down an alley in Ann Arbor and listened to Blake get really angry and cuss-y and say that Sean doesn't know anything about nachos. I mean, it was just insane how upset he got about the whole thing, about how Sean talks about nachos all the time but doesn't know jack cheese about them.
What else did I read about? That Michael Duckett thing at HG is awesome. Apparently Justin Taylor wrote some mean stuff about some botard or whatever and now Gene's name is really Russell.
I think it's funny that Russell changed his name to Gene, as if one was less awkward than the other. To me, both of those names fall into the awkward category of names. If Mike is a normal name and Joe and Dave are normal names, Gene and Russell are equally abnormal. What made him go from Russell to Gene? What's the point? This really pisses me off.
I have a friend; his name is Russell Elliott. That is an awesome name. It's two weird names in a row. He's in China now and he likes baseball and his favorite band is The Raspberries probably. He has a preference between Greg Kott and Jim Deregotis.
And now there's Russell Morgan -- also two weird names in a row. Morgan, though, is kind of hot. Like, when I think about someone named Morgan I think about Baywatch for some reason, and I don't think I'm the only one who this smatters for.
(Sold the film rights to Light Boxes, btw.)
I bought Stephanie Johnson's book from Keyhole. It better be good. I watched SJ read from it on the Internet because that's what the Internet is for.
This morning I woke up on the floor. Never even tried to make it to bed. I remember when Joe left I was thinking, oh I'll just rest here for a second and I laid down. Next thing I know I'm waking up with my cell phone in my hand thinking "I should tweet this."
OMG I read about the hardcover copy of MLKNG SCKLS that Justin "Muscles" Sirois is making. CRAVE:

My brother used to call me tuna breath.
Speaking of asking questions to an indeterminate Internet readership, the contest to win a copy of MLKNG SCKLS by writing an acrostic was won by a hot guy named Frank Sung. Justin wrote about it. The contest was hosted by Brian Allen Carr. I don't know what he looks like but I think he's awesome. He wrote about it too.
I've been away for so long that I don't think I'll be able to devote the proper amount of attention to the items Matt Bell has been sharing in my Google Reader. Crap, I feel like I'm missing a lot.
But I watched Blake Butler eat his book Scorch Atlas, which is amazing. The book I mean. Not sure how I feel about him eating it. It's obviously a publicity stunt, and that pisses me off.
I read about Sean Lovelace going to Hot Springs, Arkansas though and want to go there. I also want to write things such as "I calmed down like a TV show" like he does. In fact, I don't want to write at all unless I write things like that.
Back in May I walked down an alley in Ann Arbor and listened to Blake get really angry and cuss-y and say that Sean doesn't know anything about nachos. I mean, it was just insane how upset he got about the whole thing, about how Sean talks about nachos all the time but doesn't know jack cheese about them.
What else did I read about? That Michael Duckett thing at HG is awesome. Apparently Justin Taylor wrote some mean stuff about some botard or whatever and now Gene's name is really Russell.
I think it's funny that Russell changed his name to Gene, as if one was less awkward than the other. To me, both of those names fall into the awkward category of names. If Mike is a normal name and Joe and Dave are normal names, Gene and Russell are equally abnormal. What made him go from Russell to Gene? What's the point? This really pisses me off.
I have a friend; his name is Russell Elliott. That is an awesome name. It's two weird names in a row. He's in China now and he likes baseball and his favorite band is The Raspberries probably. He has a preference between Greg Kott and Jim Deregotis.
And now there's Russell Morgan -- also two weird names in a row. Morgan, though, is kind of hot. Like, when I think about someone named Morgan I think about Baywatch for some reason, and I don't think I'm the only one who this smatters for.
(Sold the film rights to Light Boxes, btw.)
I bought Stephanie Johnson's book from Keyhole. It better be good. I watched SJ read from it on the Internet because that's what the Internet is for.
This morning I woke up on the floor. Never even tried to make it to bed. I remember when Joe left I was thinking, oh I'll just rest here for a second and I laid down. Next thing I know I'm waking up with my cell phone in my hand thinking "I should tweet this."
OMG I read about the hardcover copy of MLKNG SCKLS that Justin "Muscles" Sirois is making. CRAVE:

My brother used to call me tuna breath.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
35 Hours In
Rewarded myself yesterday with a big pack of Spree, which I ate in about 2 minutes. I like the mellow flavors best.
Mailed a bunch of books today. I'm glad a lot of people took advantage of the special.
I like Donald Hall's poem, "Meatloaf," in the New Yorker this week and would like to speak intelligently about it (but can't). Like, I like the formal conceit and I'm pretty sure there is more to it than nine syllables in nine stanzas of nine lines -- oh! it's about baseball! -- I think there is also a deliberateness in when Hall changes subjects from Kurt Schwitters to meatloaf to the women -- but it's an extremely easy poem to read and clearly those mystery explorations don't make it more edifying. This stanza here is "all guts, no glory" in the sense that it's baldfaced, sincere, and done so well that it doesn't make me uncomfortable, but then, too, it doesn't really achieve anything in terms of making me get as emotional as he was as a suicide risk (which is nice):
There is a lot of presupposition in those lines, and I like how much he's taking for granted. I also like how regular guy he is and maybe this achieves a lot for poetry that people stop caring about it for a while and just watch TV then become suicide risks? I dunno.
Why am I spending so much time considering a mainstreamer? I'll go read a poem by someone nifty.
Hey, here's one by someone named Christopher Rizzo, which Greying Ghost just re-released apparently in a pamphlet that looks pretty neat.
Buy the whole book for $3.50.
There's a lot I don't know about that poem, but I like it a lot. Each word is like two words. What is a hillelagh? Am I misreading that stanza because I don't see two words in thornery. It's a crafty poem, and a tricky one, and you have to kind of parse it out like you do with a lot of poems like ee cummings poems, but not all of them, but most of the ones you have to approach like a puzzle I don't like, and yet this one I do.
15 minutes until 36 hours in, how you like me now? How you like me then?
This weekend I leave for a camping trip with my two parents, my two brothers, their two wives and two kids -- and then it's just me. I am only one thing. It doesn't seem fair, but I like it this way. I just hope the kids do not kill me. To be honest, I am not a big kid guy. If you're looking for someone who wants to talk to kids and play with them and stuff, just pass me by. I hope this isn't too square.
I pretty much just want to sit around and read Alaska by James Michener all week. I will read it in the morning by a smoldering fire pit, in the afternoon at a picnic table, in the evening while floating in a kayak, at night in my parents's RV. One day I will carry it up Mt. Ampersand and read it on that guy.

Maybe I'll read The Road too. I hear that's a good one.
Mailed a bunch of books today. I'm glad a lot of people took advantage of the special.
I like Donald Hall's poem, "Meatloaf," in the New Yorker this week and would like to speak intelligently about it (but can't). Like, I like the formal conceit and I'm pretty sure there is more to it than nine syllables in nine stanzas of nine lines -- oh! it's about baseball! -- I think there is also a deliberateness in when Hall changes subjects from Kurt Schwitters to meatloaf to the women -- but it's an extremely easy poem to read and clearly those mystery explorations don't make it more edifying. This stanza here is "all guts, no glory" in the sense that it's baldfaced, sincere, and done so well that it doesn't make me uncomfortable, but then, too, it doesn't really achieve anything in terms of making me get as emotional as he was as a suicide risk (which is nice):
5.
When I was named Poet Laureate,
the kids of Danbury School painted
baseballs on a kitchen chair for me,
with two lines from “Casey at the Bat.”
In fall I lost sixty pounds, and lost
poetry. I studied only “Law
and Order.” My son took from my house
the eight-sided Mossberg .22
my father gave me when I was twelve.
There is a lot of presupposition in those lines, and I like how much he's taking for granted. I also like how regular guy he is and maybe this achieves a lot for poetry that people stop caring about it for a while and just watch TV then become suicide risks? I dunno.
Why am I spending so much time considering a mainstreamer? I'll go read a poem by someone nifty.
Hey, here's one by someone named Christopher Rizzo, which Greying Ghost just re-released apparently in a pamphlet that looks pretty neat.
Untitled
by Christopher Rizzo fr. Naturalistless
Drizzleaf
Hazealous
livellum
herespite
blushillelagh
thornery
majorambling
oakay
Buy the whole book for $3.50.
There's a lot I don't know about that poem, but I like it a lot. Each word is like two words. What is a hillelagh? Am I misreading that stanza because I don't see two words in thornery. It's a crafty poem, and a tricky one, and you have to kind of parse it out like you do with a lot of poems like ee cummings poems, but not all of them, but most of the ones you have to approach like a puzzle I don't like, and yet this one I do.
15 minutes until 36 hours in, how you like me now? How you like me then?
This weekend I leave for a camping trip with my two parents, my two brothers, their two wives and two kids -- and then it's just me. I am only one thing. It doesn't seem fair, but I like it this way. I just hope the kids do not kill me. To be honest, I am not a big kid guy. If you're looking for someone who wants to talk to kids and play with them and stuff, just pass me by. I hope this isn't too square.
I pretty much just want to sit around and read Alaska by James Michener all week. I will read it in the morning by a smoldering fire pit, in the afternoon at a picnic table, in the evening while floating in a kayak, at night in my parents's RV. One day I will carry it up Mt. Ampersand and read it on that guy.

Maybe I'll read The Road too. I hear that's a good one.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Work
Work says no blogging from work. It's true that I write most of my posts from my cubicle. So. I'll try to keep things going in the before and after. This is a pretty huge blow.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Dear Blog
Would it be funny if I called myself "Daddy" to my blog?
Like, "Dear Blog, Daddy misses you but he's been very busy at work."
Some cool things are happening. Matthew Simmons's book, A JELLO HORSE, is about sold out. You can still get a copy if you act fast: ORDER HERE.
Some movie people are trying to decide to make LIGHT BOXES: THE FILM. Some German people are talking about making LIGHT BOXES: THE GERMAN BOOK. Some Slavs are like, LIGHT BOXES: THE EXCERPT IN CROATIAN.
Daddy thinks that's such good news.
Jamie plays bass in my band, Baby Wolf Sweatpants. His daughter played drums and sang with us at practice yesterday. It was awesome. I want a 7-yr-old in the band. She nails all the turns.
I think our music is pretty traditional rock, but I'm not sure. We're playing at The Black Hole on Saturday. That ain't your traditional rock club; check out the bartendars (sic) there. WTF?
MLKNG SCKLS is in the binding stage at the printers. I'm hoping to see them on Friday or Saturday, and mailing out copies to the pre-ordering people. PRE-ORDER HERE.
I'm going to have three poems in OCHO, thanks to Blake Butler. I wonder how that contest he's running is going.
Dear Blog, Daddy loves you.
Like, "Dear Blog, Daddy misses you but he's been very busy at work."
Some cool things are happening. Matthew Simmons's book, A JELLO HORSE, is about sold out. You can still get a copy if you act fast: ORDER HERE.
Some movie people are trying to decide to make LIGHT BOXES: THE FILM. Some German people are talking about making LIGHT BOXES: THE GERMAN BOOK. Some Slavs are like, LIGHT BOXES: THE EXCERPT IN CROATIAN.
Daddy thinks that's such good news.
Jamie plays bass in my band, Baby Wolf Sweatpants. His daughter played drums and sang with us at practice yesterday. It was awesome. I want a 7-yr-old in the band. She nails all the turns.
I think our music is pretty traditional rock, but I'm not sure. We're playing at The Black Hole on Saturday. That ain't your traditional rock club; check out the bartendars (sic) there. WTF?
MLKNG SCKLS is in the binding stage at the printers. I'm hoping to see them on Friday or Saturday, and mailing out copies to the pre-ordering people. PRE-ORDER HERE.
I'm going to have three poems in OCHO, thanks to Blake Butler. I wonder how that contest he's running is going.
Dear Blog, Daddy loves you.
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